We’re getting awfully close to the end. The end of the school year and the end of this pregnancy.
Both prospects seem a little scary if you ask me.
I’m doing my best to savor each little nuance of this last pregnancy but at the same time I’m done. I’ve entered into the last stage of pregnancy when all you think about all day long is that you are PREGNANT. And that you could have a baby TODAY or you could have a baby in WEEKS. That alone could make anyone crazy, nevermind all the hormones.
I’ll be honest, the last few days I’ve been crabby. The irony is that physically I’m feeling pretty darn good for a water buffalo, but I’ve lost control of the filter between my brain and mouth. This is not particularly helpful when we’re trying to insist on some basic rules with the littles. Rules like no talking back, no tattling, and please, please, treat each other with some respect. And let’s practice some self-control and patience while we’re at it. Funny thing is, “do as I say not as I do” training doesn’t seem to work particularly well with little ones. Ahem. Yes, I’m taking notes. Because even mama needs to practice some self-control and patience.
Thursday is our first full day of summer vacation and I’m a little nervous. I feel like the stakes are higher than usual and that we need to do something big and fun and exciting before baby. I also have to be careful not to set the bar too high though, because the last thing I need is the kiddos expecting super-mom all summer long. Because let’s be honest, this summer is going to be all about keeping things simple. Think lots of popsicles, turning on the backyard sprinklers and filling up the wading pool again and again. Maybe adding a slip ‘n slide into the mix to shake things up a bit. And don’t forget everyone’s summertime favorite; lots of quiet time. Ha.
Meanwhile I’m spending my time both making plans and trying not to make a single plan. And I debate important things like, should I make *just one more* big trip to Costco to stock up? What about all those photo albums I was going to finish? Or maybe I should just sit at home and enjoy this last little bit of quiet?
I know, I know, all of this might seem crazy because yes, we have done this three times already, but the thing is each new baby is life-changing. Soon we are going to meet a sweet baby girl who is going to steal our hearts. And I know it will be beautiful and overwhelming and peaceful and chaotic all at once.