In all things.

Have you ever selected the wrong speed on the kitchen aid mixer?

Me neither.

Until last week.

When I did.  And it was messy.

Henry and William looked up at me with wide eyes wondering how to react to such a mess.  After all, we’d just carefully measured, poured and stirred all of the ingredients to make zucchini bread.

I burst into laughter and they did the same.

{by the time I got my wit’s about me and snapped a few pictures, Henry was already off to our neighbor’s to share our funny story…}

Later on I realized how my boys had first looked to me before reacting.  Was this something to be upset over?  Should we be worried that we were now wearing egg and flour and shredded zucchini?

My children look to me {or Alex} in almost all things.  As they navigate their way though life they look to us to guide them, keep them safe and to serve as their first teachers.

Um, hello responsibility.

Yet what stood out to me in this moment was not that their reactions reflected my reaction, but that they turned first to me.

——–
Often in this life I think I’ve finally found my footing, as was the case not long ago.  I had this whole daughter of God, wife, mother, special needs parent, daughter, friend thing under control.  And I felt great comfort in that.  I was sure.  Of myself.

Yet, as life tends to do, storms brew and I found myself lost out at sea, tossed around by the waves of fear, control and the frenzy of my own self-talk.  I felt alone and upset with the Lord.  Doesn’t He know I’m only equipped for smooth sailing?  I don’t do storms. 

Or if I’m being really honest.  I’ve already sailed my one storm Lord.

Meanwhile {and I can only say this looking back} I now see my Lord was there the whole time, protecting me from the storm even while I acted like a child, foolishly pushing back against my Father, thinking His protection unnecessary.

I can do this myself.

During this stormy season of life my Father continually used this storm to speak to a daughter who is entirely unworthy.  He was relentless, yet I remained stubborn, letting my pride get in the way.

I wonder what waves I could have been spared?

Today I have found comfort in knowing that I am being refined.  Always, in all things.  Smooth sailing or stormy weather.  For now the storm has settled, the waves calmed and I’ve found myself back ashore.  At peace.  Hopeful.  And I’ve been reminded once again, to turn to the Lord, first in all things.  Not just during times of struggle, or in fear, but in joy and with thanksgiving

To have the faith of a child.

To turn to Him first, in all things.

——–

May the God of Hope fill you with joy and peace, as you trust Him; so that you may overflow with hope, by the power of the Holy Spirit.

Romans 15:13

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Ready to make a mess of your own?

Zucchini Bread/Muffins

Preheat oven to 350
3 c shredded zucchini (about three medium)
3 c all purpose flour
1 c whole wheat flour {I might try 1/2 and 1/2 next time..}
1 c granulated sugar
1/4 c brown sugar
5 tsp. baking powder
1 Tbs. grated lemon rind
3 Tbs. ground flax seed {if you don’t have any just substitute 3 more Tbs. of oil…}
1 1/2 tsp cinnamon
1/2 tsp salt
1/4 tsp nutmeg
1 1/2 c milk
3 Tbs. canola oil
2 tsp. vanilla
2 eggs

Press shredded zucchini on several layers of paper towels.  Cover w. additional paper towels and set aside.

Combine flour, sugar and next seven ingredients {through flax seed} in a large bowl; make a well in center of mixture.

Combine milk, oil, vanilla and eggs in a bowl; stir w. whisk.  Add zucchini stir.  Add to flour mixture; stir until moist.

Divide batter evenly between two loaf pans coated w. cooking spray {if making bread}.  Bake at 350 for 1 hour or until done.  If making muffins spray muffin tins with cooking spray and bake for 15 minutes or until done.

Cool on wire rack in pans for 5 minutes.  Remove from pans.  Cool completely on wire rack.

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2 thoughts on “In all things.

  1. So happy I found your blog! I just love your honesty.. you write about all the things I could never admit or dare to say out loud. Thank you.

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